Some days are like today - when your thoughts are a spillover from yesterday's, your mind is going over the same thing over and over again, that thing that inadvertently causes you to retreat into yourself, wallow in the sadness and shun any kind of contact, which you know usually leads you to feel better. After all, distraction is the best solution. But you're having none of it. In fact, what caused all this brouhaha was just an assumption of yours. What if that wasn't really the case, yeah? But then you're too stubborn, too full of pride and mindful of the mind games that people play to take the plunge and ask the questions.
.......
After years of that song in your consciousness, it's only now that the message clicked. Of course, why would it then? But without thinking to, you find it's what you actually need...
No regrets
'Coz I'm doing this for myself
Now I'm letting you go
Even if you were never mine to hold
So I have to say
"This ends today"
'Coz I gotta stop crying
Yes I gotta start living baby
Although I have to say
You're the best mistake that I made
So I'm leaving this situation
Thank you for the sensations
And you begin to wonder, ne Makopa, who said those lines eh? Cause you knew those guys at one point in your life.
.......
The thing is, are you ready to finally make true what you've been thinking for weeks, months probably? Are you finally making this decision and sticking to it?
You say it's just a phase. Normally you wouldn't be feeling like this. So then, would you put up with these moments when you've got nothing to distract you and all those emotions are weighing you down? I wonder what will trigger you to make a final decision.
It's hard to make a decision though with only half of the facts. You're courteous enough to give him a chnce to explain, not unlike in your daydreams of your own hurt/love story. You're itching to know what he thinks...maybe you should start from there?
This is a most convoluted thing. So, time for some closure then?
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